Thats right! I'm down with chicken pox!! I am so damn unlucky! Ppl get it when they are young. Why do i have to get it at this age?? *ARG* Cant eat this cant eat that, cant do this, cant do that. Its damn bloody troublesome! *feeling super irritated* Can feel the blisters in my throat as well! ARG!! Terrible! Now cant even finish the cross training at work properly. well i wont know whats the backup arrangement though...but i feel that KM shld go back to her team den we'll continue our cross train after i get back at work....that will be fairer. Ah, all these are not within my control so we shall see how when i go back to work...like, 2 wks later? *sighs*

Feel irritated at everything!! Esp when i cannot bathe! ARG!! But luckily, its only 19 days left to our BKK trip!! So looking forward to it!! YEAH!!

I am officially single...since last Sun...parting was so damn difficult...both of us jus couldnt let go.....den why break? some may ask...

I dont have that ans now, i believe i wont have that ans in the future too...but he will be someone irreplaceable in my heart...someone who loves me more dan myself....its my loss that im letting go this relationship....but....sigh...im jus not good enough for him i guess....

~mE~

Whew...im realllllyyyyy very tired!! Woken up by bii at 3am to chat and book tix/hotel....and slpt at ard 5am. Woke up again at 730am for work. I'm really slping at waking up at weird hours!! =/ Though the both of us noe that we cant be doing that everyday....but i really feel weird when i don't Skype him. =P Well, at least he called my office line today, so not too bad! Hee. Will be emailing/smsing him now and then though...

Its only one mth left!!! To our trip!! I am sooo blardy happy/exhilarated/ecstatic!!! Time really flies! But the 2nd parting would be harder...since it will be a period of 4 mths before we can see each other again...unless i fly over...which i am considering....i really am!! Super tempted....to stay together as a couple...how sweet can that be? Its just like a mini honeymoon.... *dreamy*

Tmr i'll be moving to another team...job rotation. Well i'm feeling quite excited but at the same time, quite uncertain abt the change..with new line manager and team members...i'm not sure how well i can blend into the team and how well i would perform...jus cross my fingers and hope for the best! Well, at least RH promised me that i will be learning CTM! hee! I really thank God for this chance to go over. Though i didnt request for it, but at least i'm gg over to learn something...and leave this area for awhile...im just kinda irritated by my current situation. Maybe they'll switch us over for good? *shrugs* Not sure! But at least i'll be in the same team as XQ...so not too bad. =)

Should list/cross out some of the stuff i need to do:
1) Pay the balance for hotel
2) check with hotel if can check in earlier
3) review itinerary
4) collect jacket tmr
5) buy sling bag for bkk trip
6) printout flight details/itinerary/maps
7) make reservation for spa/massage (discuss with bb which package to take up =P)

Yap i guess that should be all...those stuff which i should do within these 2 weeks. My eyes are getting heavier...an indication for me to go n slp! Goodnite all....

~mE~

Decided to create a new blog to pen down my more matured thoughts (supposedly?) for a new beginning.

He's now at the airport, probably surrounded by relatives, bugging him to take care, eat well, sleep well, etc. I'm supposed to be there, am I not? But I can't. Not under such circumstances, not when I'm in such a complicated and confusing status. I have declared myself single. The word is "declared". No official or proper break-ups yet. Just silently drifting apart...No way i'm gonna let it die down like this. Shall find a proper time & place to talk. I believe deep down in our hearts, its not going to work anymore. Despite those talks and periods of trying...and trying...i guess the both of us are just drained out. Nothing is gonna be the same anymore.

He just called. I'm not sure how am i going to survive for the next 6 mths. Well, at least a 6 wks wait doesn't sound too bad to me, but after Sept i'll probably be dead. I'll be flying to BKK in 6 weeks time!! I can't wait!!! Looking soooo forward to this wonderful trip....with no worries, no familiar faces, no restrictions....we can just be ourselves there!

I shall curl up in my bed, wipe off my tears, and wait for his call tomorrow afternoon. I'm already missing him so so much.....that my heart aches....so badly....



~mE~